BORED

So the thing that I wasnt gonna do anymore carework was just a big fat lie.........
The chief executive called me up and said he cant have one pa (me) not doing care work when everyone else is doing it....
So im back out busting my arse and hurting my back even more.....
And have absolutely no job satisfaction what so ever.... BUT got a good wage last month....and hopefully this will continue.....
But i keep being promised thing will change...and its all empty promises.....
At the moment im just collecting evidence and have one mighty big row.
Or not row.....Im gonna sit him down and say that I left my other job to move up the ladder and get a more managerial role...and whats happened????
Ive taken a HUGE step down and am not doing what it says in my jobdescription.....
AARGGHHHHH so angry....
Oh whatever....

I have got in touch with sa many of my old schoolfriends.....really want to meet up with them all!!!
Im going home for my birthday in January...Wonder if anyone would be up for meeting up?
Will they want to?
Or are we just being friendly and polite on facebook?
I would just love to see them all....................even her...........who i wasnt overly keen on at that time.....
But it was such a long time ago.............and I am an adult now...all grown up............sort of anyway
Haha

Christmas is nearly upon us....mmmmm yummy
I love christmas!!
Im putting my decorations up this weekend!
got to work tonight....
Wake night...not looking forward to it but it pays well so its ok...
Already knackered though so i can see myself falling asleep in the sofa...haha

RESULT!!!

Yesterday my boss called me into the office and told me they are taking me off homecare completely!!!!!
Im just gonna be doing assessments and training and inuction
Result!!
Im reallt happy about that!
Got some homecare this weekend but its ok since I know that after monday there will be no more!!
Nothing much has otherwise happened in my life this week...

I did it....

I had that talk with my boss today...and he actually apologised...!!
And said that the last thing he wants is for me to be unhappy and leave, they need me and really value my work and he commends me of being so proffesional and not let it affect my work.....
Well.....lol.....what can you say to that?
So im gonna stay for a while...give til the new year......then we will see.....I dont trust him as far as i can swing a hamster......lol
Anyway,
Having healthy chicken with grilled vegetables and cous cous for dinner when he is not at home...
The healthiest Ive had in weeks....the obundace of chocolate didnt last long....cant stop it.....need some serious help...lol
Gilian McKeith here i am...
Talked to my best favourite friend in the whole wide world this morning, and she agreed to be my briedsmaid next year!!!!!!
Yeay!
I now have two fantastic amazing girls for my briedsmaids and one little aswell and her two brothers as pageboys.
Will be a great day!!

Well i never...

What can you say....
I wrote a message to my school bully (just a friendly "Hi how are you" type of thing......)
And she has replied and we have talked and she obviously dont remember how things was 20 years ago.....and who does really?
Am I being an idiot here?
Should i just finally put it behind me and have some sort of sporadic contact with her?
We dont have to speak everyday and meet up when I go home..
Or should I put it behind me but remove her from my friendbook and dont speak to her ever again?
My god if someone reads this they will think that im just pathetic and should get a life... Sounds like we are back on the playground.....
Thats the effect she has on me...
But its only like that because I allow it to be....I KNOW THAT!!!!
Sometimes life seriously sucks...
And othertimes its great I suppose....

Nothing

Ive removed some of my "friends" from facebook...
What is really the point of contacting someone and then not sending them a single little hello message???????
and its not as if we were ever good friends....
Another thing.......
The girl who made my life a total misery in school contacted me.....
And asked how I was and it would be nice to hear from me again......what do you say to that?
Fuck you, I hate you! Its all your fault that im still insecure about myself and think that people dont really like me? Its because of you that I think I see hate in other peoples eyes when they are looking at me and its your fault that I comfort eat?

Or should I be grown up about it all and say Hey, that was 20(!) years ago and Im over it! (even though im not.....) and it will be great to hear what you been up to lately! (she is a single mum, boyfriend left her aparently.....ha)

I did the latter......but she hasnt got back to me yet....
So I might have to remove her in a few weeks time haha


Over to something else....
We are meeting the vicar tomorrow!!!
its for real now.
Seriously....am I not too young to get married?
(No seriously Mia you are 31 soon 32! for christ sake...)
So at least now we can book a church and I can get started on the invitations....That is very exciting!