In agony

Im in so much pain. It is killing me, I am coughing so much my chest is rattling. I have tried everything, drinking hot tea with lemon and honey, sucking on strepsils, coughmixture...Tomorrow I am calling the doctor I guess...But I dont know what reason to give, since before christmas I was told that I cant seek the doctor for just a cough...But I have now had this cold for a month and apparently that is not the norm...Even if I in the past have had colds on and off from November-April.

I went to my first work this morning, but had to cancel going to the school. Chances are we would have been playing outside in the snow. The stupid snow that wont go away! And there is no way I could cope with that. Or playing full stop, I feel I need to just sit very still, even just walking up the five steps that are my stairs takes my breath away completely.
I feel like I have been winded and I cant talk properly.
So the best thing for me is to stay indoors in the warmth with fluid and the Friends boxset entertaining me.

I havent got much energy to write, so I will keep this short and finish now.
Shal I play a song?
I found this on Youtube today, and remember when it first came out in 1998 or was 1999? I didnt have a clue what a bootie call was... I thought it had something to do with boots..but I loved the song.

Poem...

Someone just sent me a poem...
I think it is lovely, but I am a bit dense about poetry, so maybe it is rude?
It is a little freaky, since I dont him that well...but I still take it as a compliment. I think.
Here it is, what do you think?

Taking liberty of new year.....

I look at you
So many curves in glorious symmetry
I wish I could trace it's imagery
Slowly caressing as to never forget

Your lips so full
A temptation to bite, nibble
A wanting to kiss and devour
Such a longing desire

Your hair shining like the black of night
A midnight passion
A breeze of seduction

Your eyes a world within a gaze
So sensual
Just one stare
It's so unfair
I get lost within you

Your hips wide
A wish to kiss
Side to side

I want to hold you slowly
Make you see I'm the one for thee

You're precious like a rose
Silk and smooth
Your body perfect in every way
Unique, simplistic
A reality
Beauty, sensuality, passion collide
:)
Happy New Year

It probably wasnt written for me originally...."Your hair shining like the black of the night"....and everyone who knows me knows that I am platinum blonde...and it is my own colour, not from a bottle.
But still, it is nice.
Hope you have a good day all.

Here we go again....

I am ill again. I am coughing and sneezing. Probably due to the fact I stood outside in the freezing cold yesterday trying to get the poxy car to start.
I have spent the day in my tracksuit, even wore it when I went to my parents for dinner. My mum picked me up since she had been shopping and got some christmas decorations that was in the sale with an extra 50% off. She got me a cussion and some towels, I love being back home now, it means that mum will buy me little nick nacks that she thinks I will like (and I do like it, she knows my taste)
I am now home, watching "Click" with Adam Sandler, I didnt think I would like it, but so far it is very funny.

I hate being ill! It means I can't go to the gym tomorrow, which sucks since I have got into a good routine with three times a week. If I go to bed early tonight I might feel better tomorrow. So an early night tonight. Again. Wohoo. I do live an exciting life.

New song by Jay Sean, one of my favourite singers.
His songs makes me want to do naughty things, with naughty boys.
Hope you enjoy it.
Have a good night

Caught in the cold

I am curled up in my arm chair with a steaming mug of green tea. It is terribly cold and I have not been able to get warm all day.
We took two of the residents out for a little drive and stopped at the shop to get some groceries on the way back. Alma went in to the shop whilst I stayed in the car with the radio and the heating on. Big mistake! When I tried to start the engine the battery was dead..How stupid can one get?
We called our colleagues who came to the rescue and jump started us so we could get home. We were only stuck for maximum half an hour but I was frozen to the bone.
I am slowly thawing now, the tea is really helping and the warm blanket I have wrapped around myself.
I will definately have an early night tonight and not stay up watching Friends til two am.
I might have a meeting over coffee with a carpenter tomorrow.



Just because I love this song and I like Mariah Careys version, not for any other reason.
Good night all.

New Job....

It has been a good day today I think... I called the big boss, who has been on leave all the time I have worked at the school, to see if I am working next week or not.
She said that she wanted to meet me and could I come in for an interview at 1pm today?
Uhm...yes I guess I can...
As soon as I put the phone down panick hit me like a sledge hammer. I was going on an interview!!! And had less than three hours to prepare myself.
It went ok, I did feel a bit intimmidated, Im not sure why, the woman is really short, but I find that short people are intimmidating, they have that "I need to make myself heard" aura about them that freaks me out...
So I have got myself a new job...it is a six months contract that will hopefully be extended to another six months.
I guess I need to show them that I can do this and that I am an asset to the team..
Which is what makes me so nervous I could vomit!

First shift was good, then off I went to job nr two which also went ok, we had cake since it is one of the residents birtday today.
It is bitterly cold now, the snow is crunching when you walk on it, which is nice, but I have had enough now.
Want it to be warmer and sunnier, basically.
I am working tomorrow morning aswell, so I better get myself ready for bed.

On my daily treck of You tube I found this...it was on "Rude Tube" the 100 clips with most hits on youtube in 2009....weird kid..with an amazing but weird voice....



I have a new job!

Frustration

I woke up feeling frustrated. I had breakfast and went over to my mums house, still feeling frustrated. We started to watch the boxset of Desperate Housewives series five, and still there was that niggly frustrated, annoyed feeling in my tummy and in my head. I finally realised why and it is because I am going back to work tomorrow and I feel unsure what will happen in the future.
Will I get the long term temp position? Or shal I carry on working part time and then study a bit more? What? What?
I am not very good with not knowing what to do....I dont like it...
I then went to bed and slept for a few hours before heading off to the gym where all the frustration and annoyingness dissapeared.
I feel calmer and more at peace now, and I think that whatever will happen, it will be the right thing for me. So there. I will stay positive!

I heard this song today, like it, makes me want to dance around in my underwear.
I can feel that this blog post is not really going anywhere, so I will finish off and do something useful. Or not, maybe Ill just sit and watch my christmas present Donna gave me. The complete series, Extended, Exclusive and Unseen: Friends.
Night all.



I just googled "frustration" to get my pic for the top and the majority of the pictures were of boobs......WHY? Are they so frustrating??

Weekend in London

I am back home, in Sweden. The flight was delayed, then the luggage took half an hour to come through so it was gone midnight before I was home in my flat.
I have had a brilliant time. Seeing Donna again was great and her man is lovely.
They picked me up at Gatwick airport and then drove Donnas little Toyota Yaris to their flat. Donna cooked lasagne which I havent eaten since I came back to Sweden. So it was yummy yummy. We then watched tv (I demanded Eastenders, which I havent seen since April, so I didnt have a clue about what was going on, but aparently Stacy and Bradley are back together!!!!) and drank an awful lot of wine. Donna made up my bed and I slept like a baby.
On thursday (New Years eve) me and Donna went to Twickenham for a bit of shopping. The night before we had said that both of us were in desperate need of a haircut, so when we were in Army and Navy buying make-up we went to the indoor hairdressers and was lucky enough to both get an appointment.
It was the funniest hour and half I have had in a hairdresser, I tell you...
I was first to sit in the chair, she took the band out of my hair and said: "Hmmm, yes, your hair dont do anything for you does it? Look at the frizz, to get rid of the frizz you have to put some kind of product on the hair, but you dont do that do you?" And she looked at me very sternly, like a head mistress.... I could feel myself shrinking into the chair, wishing I had put a product on my hair...I dont know what product though...
She then cut it a bit too short and curled it...so I looked like my grannie when she had just had a perm...not attractive at all...
Then Donna sat in the chair and again she said: Hmmm yes, your hair does nothing for you does it? As she started to comb through her hair she nearly cried, she seemed to be in utter despair about poor Donnas hair, "Oh I dont know what to do with this, it is just SO DRY" She then proceeded to comb Donnas hair infront of her face and left her whilst talking to a delivery man, leaving Donna sitting with all her hair hanging in front of her eyes, looking like one of those sheepdogs with the fringe covering their eyes.
Me and Donna was nearly wetting ourselves as we ran out of the store to the pub where we ate a really nice chicken and shared a bottle of wine.

After a couple of hours we got a cab home, we only got a little bit lost on the way.
Once home I painted my nails, had a shower and straightened my hair. It turned out pretty good and my new top looked great aswell.
One of Sams friends,Ed, turned up and we went to the pub together. Donna had high hopes that me and Ed would end up in bed together, fall in love and then I would stay in England. Bless her heart. Me and Ed did not fall in love, neither did we end up in bed together.

New Years day we spent on the sofa, watching "Superman returns" (not "Superman flies again" as I first thought) Donna cooked a roast and we ate tubs of Ben and Jerry ice cream. The next day, saturday, we got on the train and went to Kingston for some more shopping. By this time Donna was becoming more and more poorly, she was snotty and coughing a lot, so after lunch Sam came to pick us up and we drove home.
Again we slumped on the sofa and watched tv. That night we decided to order pizza and finish off the Ben and Jerry icecream.

When Sunday came round Donna was really ill, poor thing. I borrowed her car and drove over to Sally and Alex and the kids to spend the day with them. Bronwen was in hospital with stomach pains (which turned out to be an inflamed apendix which she had removed yeasterday morning) so I spend a few hours in the hospital with her.
And yesterday I came home.
I have had a great time, I was spoiled by Donna and Sam and felt very relaxed.
Today I have taken all my christmas decorations down, done my laundry and been to the gym. I need to take control of my life again, I have been very lazy even if I was also ill..during the holiday period. So it was hard today, my muscles was screaming and I am now aching like I have never ached before, but it feels good at the same time.
I had plans of cleaning today aswell, but I am just too tired. I will leave it in a mess and do a very good job tomorrow instead. I am now relaxing infront of the tv, watching "So You Think You Can Dance" and giving myself a manicure. Tonight will be an early night aswell methinks.
It is good to be back home and get back to normal again. I am fed up with the snow, and now I want spring to make an apperance. I know I am never 100% satisfied.
I wont play a christmas song tonight, but I will play a song that was frequently aired on Viva and 4Music. It gets me in a happy party mood, so hope you enjoy it too.