Its not logic, its love

Its not logic...
Its just love......
Plain and simple love, if love can ever be simple...
Its complicated.......
and it hurts
and i hate it

You know when you wake up with a niggly feeling at the back of your mind.............................
It starts as something niggly, but at the end of the day its all you can think about...
Or as in my case, half way through the day, its ALL you can think about...haha

I just wish he was honest with me, if he has met someone cant he just tell me?
Why sneak and tell me he still loves me?
But not keep our arrangements?
I am so much better off without him arent I?
That is an actual question....so please, tell me.....

Having a girlie night tonight and it wouldnt surprise me if he turns up tonight, with his tail between his legs saying he thought it was tonight we were meeting?

TWAT!
Hahaha

It is getting better......

At least i think so......
Saw him today when he dropped off some money to me, he said I have to trust him.......
I said sorry, but i dont..................
He looked so hurt...the look in his eyes.....
But i cant care about that.....
I need to think about myself now, to make myself happy.....
But why does it hurt to hurt someone else?
Maybe he wasnt hurt.....?
Maybe it is just me who thinks he was....
Ah well i have to stop thinking about it so much

Oh for petes sake................they say that time is a great healer.......if you just give things a bit of time you will feel better, after a while it wont hurt so much bla bla bla!!

IT DOESNT HURT ANY LESS!!!
Fuck!!!

truth hurts...............

The truth hurts.......but a lie hurts even more, because sooner or later the truth will come out......it always does................

I used to think he was the one who would never lie to me.........there has never been a man in my life who didnt lie to me.....but I really trusted him.......and i let my guard down, because I fell in love with him and i loved him more than anyone ive ever loved before.............

just goes to show.....most people thinks it is easier to lie......

He is now messing around with a married woman, who he was messing around with before we got together.....and according to her his feelings never went away.......
I was some sort of rebound....................

that makes me feel great about myself....NOT

Just finding it so hard to get my head round and deal with.........

Its not fair......surely I dont deserve that........?

Oh dear.......the next day

Oh crap..........how drunk was i last night?
I cant believe I even managed to log on to the lap top....lol
And its true, his feet would stink.......lol

But ALL my house mates have got their boyfriends visiting this weekend, its like bloody love island here......they are cooking together and sitting on top- of each other in the sofa....

Makes me sick!!!!! LOL

Still....I want to go to sleep in his arms tonight aswell.....but not as strongly as i did last night

Oh crap...I wonder if anyone actually reads this...?
Must just be boring lol

The green eyed monster

Oh no,
Alcohol is baaaad, it brings out the green eyed monster in me.......
Ive been out tonight, and so has he.....he bumped into his ex.................
(not me....but some little slut.......)

Why did i need to know that? And why am i so upset?
Ive had a great night, talked a lot to a great man (that I am NOT intrested in but he was nice and fun to talk to.....)

And all I want now is snuggle up in his arms and go to sleep (my ex's arms.....not the man Ive been talking to tonigh...)
Would love to go to sleep and then wake up in his arms

But why am i thinking about that?
He will snore, probably slap me (unconciounsly in his sleep......) and his feet will stink so much it will take a week to get rid of it............................

Why do i want that?

Ah sometimes life sucks

Night night