Deep waters in the dark

I can feel myself venturing out on deep waters, where I can so easily loose the control Ive just got back.
Like a ship, lost, in the night, knows the destination but not how to get there.
The fear of icebergs, hidden in the water, that will rip the skin up and allow the intestines to freely escape into the dark sea and eaten by sea urchins.
I know I shouldn't go here, I need to stay on dry land, where it is safe and I cant drown again, where I wont get lost in deep dark wholes and there is no light.
To achieve the life I decided that I want for myself, safe and comfortable, no more drama.


But I'm quite good at creating my own drama.
Makes life that more exciting...and passionate