End of the day

The rest of today has been fairly relaxed, Ive just chilled out and watched my box set of "Angel".
David Boreanaz is the most gorgeous man I have ever seen!
His torso is lush and I literally drool when he takes his top off........
Watching something that isn't based on reality (and the chances of it ever becoming reality is rather slim) have provided me with a well deserved respite from my own feelings and emotions and I found myself having completely switched my brain off after a couple of hours.

I then went to see another of my favourite people in the whole world, Shelley.
She is helping me plan and organise my leaving party next month.
I love party planning, but I always find myself in a total panic when I'm organising my own parties.
What if nobody turns up?
What if I run out of food?
What if no one eats the food?
What if my nails fall off in the dip? (i have a story about me and false nails...)
What if I get too drunk and make a fool of myself?
And what if the outfit i will pick out very carefully makes me look like a heffa??

So yes just a few things I worry about...

I have also started sorting things out from my boxes i have stored in Shelley's garage.
Things I wont take with me back to Sweden and will sell to a girl at work since she has just got her own new flat and hasn't even got a saucepan, bless her.
It made me a bit upset to go through all the stuff, things we used to have in our home.
But I reasoned that there is no point to cling on to plates, cups or bowls just because it will remind me of our dinner times together, so I will start completely afresh when I get home and buy new things that are just mine.
It will take time, maybe even a long time, but I will be fine.

I will now snuggle up in my bed with the rest of "Angel" to watch.
I will sleep well tonight and have sweet dreams of a dark handsome man who will rescue me from the bad guys.
Hopefully he will not wear a shirt and carry me in his arms while I rest my head on his smooth, muscular torso. (I DID say it would be in my dreams...)