England baby!!!

It seems that my suitcases has gone missing. I am convinced I brought them to my parents to store in their attic after I had unpacked them in May. My mum however, says that I put them in my own garage. Or not MY OWN garage, the garage isn't mine, it's my landlady's but I for example keep my hoover there. I have no recollection of putting my suitcases in the garage, so we are all slightly baffled of where they have dissapeared to. So I have now packed in two holdall bags, because neither of them are big enough to carry all my clothes Im taking with me.
Im guessing most of you now thinks that I should buy new clothes in England, BUT I might not have enough time to leisurely stroll around town and look for new clothes, so I better take a whole lot with me, just in case.

I am excited to get away, just because I love driving, and have incredibly fond memories about our car holidays we went on when I was in school. Me and my mum always have a good time when we are away on roadtrips.

I'm excited to see Donna, Betty, Vanessa and Alexandra again (even though I saw Alexandra only 2 weeks ago) and on saturday night Im hoping to see some of the girls from work i.e Kirstie, Mandy, Andrea, Paula? If they got time I'm sure they will meet me in the pub.

It will be a great time away, and when I come back I will be ready to start my studies (hopefully)

If I dont get time to write whilst away, I wish you a pleaasant couple of weeks. See you soon

Girlfriends

As I told you yesterday there is a leak in my bathroom, my landlady said the insurance company would be here by 7am today to look at the damages etc. So I set my alarm for 06.45 which I was not happy about. At 07.10 my landlady comes down to me and says they are not coming until Monday now... Bloody trades men...
After an hour I heard someone flushing the toilet somewhere in the house and guess what happens! Water starts dripping into my bathroom...Just the thought of dirty toilet water dripping on me when I'm brushing my teeth....ishk!!
So I am staying with my parents for the weekend, less smelly that way.

I met up with Sofie and her daughter Astrid for lunch today in town. I had a lovely chicken salad and an orange juice.
We then strolled around and looked in the shops for a while.

I always feel happy and content after some quality time with one of my girl friends, I couldn't live without them and I always wonder about women who say "I haven't got any female friends". How do they survive? How do you go through life without anyone to confine to? To vent your worries to? To giggle hysterically with?
Yes your husband/boyfriend/life partner should be your best friend, but on a different level, your girlfriends are like strawberry jam on wholegrain bread.

I cant wait to get a different bigger flat, so I can have a girlie evening with food, wine, cake and lots of laughter.
That will be top of my priorities for when I move, a big girls only housewarming party.

Back to normal

So I'm back home in my little flat, my parents came back OK, but my poor dad has brought back the flu, fingers crossed it is not swine flu...

On Monday I realised something was leaking from my bathroom ceiling. I have said since the day I moved in, there is a peculiar smell in the flat, but my mum has been persistent it is only because its a basement flat it smells different from a top floor flat. But lo and behold I was right...
There is a leak that starts in the bathroom on the third floor, goes through second and first floor, before it comes to me, where it is flowing with a vengeance.
The stink is disgusting and Ive been burning essence in the bathroom all night, just to cover up the bad smell.
Spoke to my landlady and apparently it will cost 270,000 - 300,000 SEK to get it sorted (approx £25,000) I really hope she wont put the rent up... Then ill be buggered.
Internet is playing up as well tonight, I need to look at that, I will depend on it now when I start my courses.
If I haven't got Internet when I need it I will not be able to complete my course work.

I'm tired, exhausted actually.
So will go to bed and sleep, the plumber is coming at 7am tomorrow.
I will leave you with something peaceful and relaxing

What the future holds

Ive woken up too early for a day off and a night of restless sleep. My head is pounding and I have sneezed what feels like a hundred times in an hour. So this weekend has to be a weekend of rest,at least I hope it will be a restful weekend, my parents are coming home from their holidays today, and knowing my mother, she will have lots of things she needs to "run by me".

On Monday me and my mum are setting off to England to pick up the rest of my things that are stored in Vanessa's attic, I am excited and nervous. Excited because me and my mum always have a good time when we do things together and I love travelling by car. I am also extremely excited about seeing all my friends who I miss so much that sometimes it physically hurts me.

I used to have a fire in my belly, even though I got older I still felt that I was on a huge adventure whilst living in England.
I felt like I was on a gap year and was just having fun with no responsibilities, (even though I DID have responsibilities) no one to answer to and no pressure of ever growing up. As Ive said before, I still live my life like a 22 year old student.

Now I feel like the party is over. I have to become an adult and stop the silliness and immatureness. (for example stop making up words like immatureness...its not grammatically correct)

So here I am, enrolling to college to bump my grades up, feeling a bit down to have found out that the NVQ's I worked my arse off to complete in England means nothing here....
Waste of time someone even told me...
I'm scared that I will start a course that when I'm finished I still wont get a job because I'm too old, it is more attractive to have a 22 year old working for you. And I don't think anyone will be impressed if I stomp my feet and say that "I'm 22 on the inside".

So what will become of me?
I don't know, only time can tell I suppose....

Deep waters in the dark

I can feel myself venturing out on deep waters, where I can so easily loose the control Ive just got back.
Like a ship, lost, in the night, knows the destination but not how to get there.
The fear of icebergs, hidden in the water, that will rip the skin up and allow the intestines to freely escape into the dark sea and eaten by sea urchins.
I know I shouldn't go here, I need to stay on dry land, where it is safe and I cant drown again, where I wont get lost in deep dark wholes and there is no light.
To achieve the life I decided that I want for myself, safe and comfortable, no more drama.


But I'm quite good at creating my own drama.
Makes life that more exciting...and passionate

Culinary grossness!?

I have woken up with a cough, one of those quite annoying tickly coughs that makes your eyes tear, and for some reason I start to think about something I either read somewhere or someone told me. I cant remember exactly how I know this, but a couple of times it has been brought up in conversation by other people, so I know its not just something I made up.
Apparently we "consume" an amount of bugs and other creepy crawlings in our sleep each year, i.e spiders, mosquito's, flower flies etc, they crawl into our mouths and nose and we swallow them.
It makes my skin crawl when I think of how many spiders Ive eaten in my time...

The other night I left the window open to cool my bedroom down before I went to bed, I also left my bedside light on..which was a big mistake, when I came in to go to bed, there were thousands of little flies buzzing around the lamp and on my pillow where the light was aimed to.
I have never seen anything like it before.

I managed to sweep them off the bed and I'm pretty sure they died immediately, but the question is still there...how many of those flies did find their way into my mouth during the night?

And then another question pops into my head: Occasionally you wake up in the morning with "dog taste" in your mouth, is that because you have eaten a spider during the nocturnal hours?
I'm thinking of going asleep with a scarf over my face from now on.
But then the chances of me surviving the night are reduced severely, so maybe I just have to accept that sometimes a bug will find its way into my tummy.

Ah well its his loss, he will die.
Or maybe he will build a nest?
And one day when I burp a whole bunch of baby spiders will come crawling out of my mouth, just like in a horror film.

Hope you didn't choke on your food.
Have a great weekend, I'm spending it reading.

Student life, here I come

Today was my last day at work, my summer temp contract has run out and I am officially unemployed.
So today I enrolled to "adult college", where I will study maths and hopefully get fantastic marks so that I can apply and get accepted to university next year.
I am feeling very excited.

I arrived to St Pauli school and got a minor chock when I realised that there was 150(!) people in front of me, waiting to be enrolled. I was lucky to find a ticket with a lower NR on the floor so there was only 60 people in front of me, but it still took 2.5 hours before I was seen...
I was then rushed into an information meeting on how the Internet program I will be using works. Yes you read it correctly, I wont be going to class and have a teacher face to face when I'm doing this course..it will be done over the Internet! Maths and Internet, my two favourite things....Am I just setting myself up to fail?
No I am determined to succeed in this!
I have now realised that I cant carry on working hands on in care for much longer, my back is loudly and violently protesting.
So I need to do something else, but I would like to stay within the care sector, so there are two university courses I'm interested in, Ill apply to both and then keep my fingers crossed I will be accepted to one of them.

My back is much better today, tomorrow I have a "date" (I wish) with the cute physio therapist again, in the evening I'm off to the festival with great friends for some good food, hopefully good music and some serious people watching.
Now it is time for a shower, I feel skanky and in need of some TLC.

Hope you enjoy Jordin Sparks new single.